“Demons”
There once was a time when I was depressed.
It wasn’t so long ago
Maybe about a month or so.
I’m so worried about time,
Time is my everything, or so I thought.
I was so worried about time,
I scared myself into depression.
I created my own demons.
What would I be without them though?
I’d have nothing to show for myself at the finish line.
I scared myself into depression.
I scared myself into being afraid that I wouldn't be successful.
I almost….
I was….
I am going to be successful.
It comes a time in your life when you get sick of yourself.
I’m at that point.
I’ve passed that point.
I’m sick of telling myself things to comfort myself.
I don’t need comfort.
I need to do
I NEED TO STOP TRYING
I’ve been playing myself
I haven’t used myself to my full potential
I’ve been wasting away.
Last night I got pulled over.
It was the worst feeling of my life.
I thought I was going to end up in jail,
And to top things off, I had weed in the car with me.
I’d never been so scared in my life.
All I could think about were mother and father,
what they’d told me in the past
Dos and don’ts.
College
I was afraid that I’d never go to a good college because this would show on my record
All of the above.
Thank God I had great cops.
Thank God I handled the situation correctly.
Thank God
Thank God
Thank God.
There once was a time when I was depressed.
It wasn’t so long ago
Maybe about a month or so.
I’m so worried about time,
Time is my everything, or so I thought.
I was so worried about time,
I scared myself into depression.
I created my own demons.
What would I be without them though?
I’d have nothing to show for myself at the finish line.
I scared myself into depression.
I scared myself into being afraid that I wouldn't be successful.
I almost….
I was….
I am going to be successful.
It comes a time in your life when you get sick of yourself.
I’m at that point.
I’ve passed that point.
I’m sick of telling myself things to comfort myself.
I don’t need comfort.
I need to do
I NEED TO STOP TRYING
I’ve been playing myself
I haven’t used myself to my full potential
I’ve been wasting away.
Last night I got pulled over.
It was the worst feeling of my life.
I thought I was going to end up in jail,
And to top things off, I had weed in the car with me.
I’d never been so scared in my life.
All I could think about were mother and father,
what they’d told me in the past
Dos and don’ts.
College
I was afraid that I’d never go to a good college because this would show on my record
All of the above.
Thank God I had great cops.
Thank God I handled the situation correctly.
Thank God
Thank God
Thank God.
Still, I smile.
I am the brown-skinned brother
With a Thu’um for a shout
Sadly my conscience begs me to hold my tongue,
For it fears what may come out.
Held to standards higher than Mount Everest,
I hold them on my shoulder, so I can at least look heavy set.
In a world where you have to walk the streets with a protection vest,
Every choice you make is a test;
Expected to be better than my best.
Yet, still I smile, because there is a heartbeat in my chest.
I will accept these ridiculous standards, no, I will exceed them
We were told we’d be nothing from the start,
I’m glad we didn’t believe them.
Death in the streets,
Caused by our police men,
But both parties are to be blamed,
I mean look how we treat them.
We must come together
Stop looking to defeat them.
We act as if there aren’t times when we actually need them
This is horrible for our youth, this is not what we should be teaching them
Yet, still I smile, because I have dreams of freeing them, and I’m positive that nothing will stop me from achieving them.
I am the brown-skinned brother
With a Thu’um for a shout
Sadly my conscience begs me to hold my tongue,
For it fears what may come out.
Held to standards higher than Mount Everest,
I hold them on my shoulder, so I can at least look heavy set.
In a world where you have to walk the streets with a protection vest,
Every choice you make is a test;
Expected to be better than my best.
Yet, still I smile, because there is a heartbeat in my chest.
I will accept these ridiculous standards, no, I will exceed them
We were told we’d be nothing from the start,
I’m glad we didn’t believe them.
Death in the streets,
Caused by our police men,
But both parties are to be blamed,
I mean look how we treat them.
We must come together
Stop looking to defeat them.
We act as if there aren’t times when we actually need them
This is horrible for our youth, this is not what we should be teaching them
Yet, still I smile, because I have dreams of freeing them, and I’m positive that nothing will stop me from achieving them.
The day I met myself
It took me 18 years to realize my full potential.
It’s taken me my whole life to realize who I am,
to realize what I can amount to,
To realize who I wanted to be.
I can’t explain it,
But I feel different.
I can see now.
I’ve been sleep all this time.
Now I’m starting to see the world differently;
I’m starting to see the world for what it really is,
And I’m not afraid anymore.
I’m not scared to work for what I want
I know what needs to be done to be successful.
And I’m ready to do what needs to be done.
It took me 18 years to realize my full potential.
It’s taken me my whole life to realize who I am,
to realize what I can amount to,
To realize who I wanted to be.
I can’t explain it,
But I feel different.
I can see now.
I’ve been sleep all this time.
Now I’m starting to see the world differently;
I’m starting to see the world for what it really is,
And I’m not afraid anymore.
I’m not scared to work for what I want
I know what needs to be done to be successful.
And I’m ready to do what needs to be done.